Wednesday

Im still here..

Things have been so wonderful in the our casa that I have been putting writing on the side and enjoying the nice weather and my kiddos.
Lil man has been sleeping for naps and at night for 2 weeks. Get ready for this the last two night he slept completely through the night from 8 till 7. I forgot what sleep felt like, I have energy and I am so happy these days. Blessed is the word that comes to my mind.

My husband has been laid off for a lil over a month and we are already a family that was tight on money,but God is a God of mercy and love He has made me fill like I am his only child or at least His favorite ;) The story of Jesus feeding 5000 with a few Loafs of bread and a fish is what is happening to our bank account,no explanation its just there and God is so very concerned with the small details of all His kiddos life..How cool is that.He has shown great mercy on me and my family and I just want to scream it from the roof top...GOD IS GOOD

Sunday

Justin Unger

My buddy from high school on his mini tour with JJ Heller..being a goof ball but he can sing.

Friday

St. Joe's was a good day..

Yesterday at Lil mans St. Joe's appt. we got answers.. it was a few different emotions I went through.It was validating I think to some degree. I had loss my passion that the Lord was going to completely heal Carter to having the need to prove my case.I felt a judgement around every corner, like I was a mom tring to get attention or something out of the suffering of my baby. At the beginning Carter and I had a most incredible encounter with Jesus I knew that He had done some amazing healing on my sweet boy.I told everyone that would listen about that moment in my room with my 5 week old baby.



Then I started hearing whispers and my focus kinda shifted.For awhile God has really been showing me His glory in Carters life and how the words of few are only the enemy's way of tring to take the Glory away from Him.

The doctor was also able to take away some of those thoughts that it could be something worse.He wants to do some test to make sure his hunch is right but it was a peaceful moment for me he gave validation and also set my fears away.

When lil man was first born and I heared the words Cerebral Palsy I thought my world ended, today I have much hope and lil fear when it come to it.I do at times have sadness in wondering how it will affect Carter as he ages..teasing,playing sports etc... You know those thoughts when you are laying in bed tring to sleep.

Tuesday

Four days of bliss

My sweet baby has been so great the past four days he has slept, played, not gotten fussy or stiff not once.Its times like this that I will start telling myself "see there really is nothing wrong" and from past experiences it seems as soon as I say it "it" happens. Maybe this time he has "outgrown" what ever it is or maybe God knows I need these nice breaks to renew my mind and get some rest.He had Ot today at 11 I love this women and how great but yet so honest she is.


She brought pudding to do paint therapy..he loved it which shocked us both. She also taught me how to do brush therapy, she wants it done every two hours he is awake.We also started music therapy so that will be done in the car since we spend so much time driving around anyways.

He is amazing me with how well he is doing with his therapy well at least his ot.


Monday

Notes to self....

This week's Question of the Week over at Multiples...and More is: If you could go back in time (think: Marty McFly) and have a chat with your pregnant self, what would you say?

Well here goes with my first:
You are probably scared and a lil nervous that you are not ready to be a mom "and you are right no one ever is". I would recommend that you learn how to slow down and enjoy the moments. Learn to be still and rest also, like right now not in 5 years..just a thought....It also might be a rough start at first, with your new lil girl.."yes you heared its a girl". I know you think a boy is what you need but this lil girl will change you in ways that you didnt know possible.Don't give up, hold her, kiss her, even if you don't feel it. Thing will change! Don't give up on breastfeeding her, the bond is just what you need and its so good for you both. And coming from a mom that has a 5 year old lil girl trust me when I say this: don't I repeat DON'T beat yourself up for the first few months its will change and you didn't ruin her. She actually thinks you rock!!!